So, I read the post, but, for whatever reason, it didn't feel quite right at this point in time. I then surfed through a number of other posts before finally using the "I Ching" technique I've used a couple of times in the past. I just clicked to a random date and said "this is It!"
As you'll see, Synchronicity once again prevailed. The Universe is a most amazing place.
Dad loved to fish. One of my strongest visual memories of him is of the day I looked out the front window of our apartment and saw him silhouetted against the sunsparkles of the lake a couple of hundred feet offshore, sitting quietly in his beloved rowboat, fishing pole in hand.
Dad could sit like that, motionless, surrounded by the stillness of that small Northern Illinois lake for long periods of time just peering at the red and white bobber. Most often, he returned to shore seemingly in a good mood, calmer, quieter, more content.
It wasn't at all surprising that when his doctor advised him to finally retire and "just go fishing", my dad did just that. He bought himself a camper and a trailer, and for much of final year and a half of his life, he traveled and fished from coast to coast.
I think the quest for "peace and quiet" is probably universal. Thich Nhat Hanh once wrote that even the businessman's smoke break was an attempt to stop and breath, to find a moment's peace within the busyness. The promise of the Practice is that we that we can engage in that journey with some degree of skill, that there is actually some method to our madness.
As today's quote from Ram Dass points out, there are deeper and fuller realms of experience available to us.
As we cultivate Mindfulness, we are more likely to notice ourselves being calmer, quieter. The cacophony of random thoughts and feelings and bodily tensions tend to release their grip a bit, and a sense of silent spaciousness emerges in our lives. Yet--and here's where it gets interesting--we are also more likely to experience sounds and other sensations more vividly. Sometimes it may be helpful to remember to look at Ram Dass's statement a bit differently:
Layers and layers of restlessness and dissatisfaction and pain and fear can and will emerge at times, during a period of meditation. Many of us have stuffed that stuff down for years. (I've met Dad in all his not so peaceful guises incarnated as "my" emotions many times over the years.) At these moments, the courage and care we devote to staying with the Practice offers the possibility of healing our hearts and minds at deeper and deeper levels.
With compassion and effort, as gently and diligently as possible, we choose to persist. Although it's not "easy", it can be as simple as letting of the storylines running through our mind, then exploring and fully feeling what we are experiencing before moving our awareness back to our meditation object--again and again and again.
At a certain point, you come to notice that the episodes of "noisy" patterns of thought and emotions are less frequent and pass more swiftly. It just takes Practice.
There is also another way, perhaps a bit more pleasant, that the volume knob can also get cranked up as we cultivate the Practice. It happened to me last Monday.
It got really, really QUIET!
At that moment, what my first Zen teacher may have called the Soundless Sound, became delicious, distinctly tangible. Then, as I sat there feeling the Presence, that ineffable sense of vast spacious stillness didn't dissipate at all as the next car approached. It persisted. The whirr of that car's engine emerged, peaked, and then slowly dissolved within it's embrace.
I love it when that happens.