mean that the capacity to love and accept
is not there; love is always with you.”
More than once, I've spent time here presenting the notion that simply "cutting loose of the storyline", the process of refocusing our awareness from discursive thought to other aspects of our experience (preferably what we are feeling in our heart), can sometimes take us from hell to heaven in the blink of an eye. (See Your Courtesy Wake Up Call: Once Upon a Time...)
Although I certainly have experienced something approximating that quite often, perhaps a bit of Karmic Comeuppance was necessary to burn my tail -- and burnish my humility and compassion a bit. During the last past week, Life interjected a pretty dramatic bout of upset apple carts and broohahas into the Grand Mix. It's been enough to remind me that it certainly can take a bit longer than a "blink of an eye" to regain a sense of wonder about it all.
It may even take what may seem like a hell of a long time.
The lesson? Being a calm and kind and clear and compassionate human being is NOT that easy. It is a daunting discipline that takes courage, patience, skill, time and effort. It takes Practice.
Then and Now
As a child and a young man I had what folks might call an extremely bad temper. Having grown up in the midst of a lot of anger, I would react to things in my world with bursts of violent emotions -- and even physical violence. I could fly into a rage and smash things and strike out with the worst of them. Perhaps, the deepest gratitude that I have to the Practice is that I no longer am as likely to inflict harm on others due to angry outbursts. (Although, admittedly, I can still be pretty clumsy and stupid at times. Sigh.)
Recently, I hit a deep pool of anger for the first time in quite awhile.