to stick with the technique and be faithful to the instruction,
but within that container of discipline, why do we have to be so harsh?"
Yet, as time goes on, it seems to get easier. We learn to relax with ourselves, as Pema Chödrön says, "to lighten up" more readily. As we devote time to Practice, as our "time on task" accumulates, it seems to get easier to re-connect with the Heart of Commitment.
Although some of us come to Practice through curiosity, some as an attempt to escape the suffering of a life crisis, there are moments when it seems most of us have experienced, if even in glimpses, a resonance with the notions that kindness is better than cruelty and that true gentleness has great strength. In our heart of hearts, something rings true there, if ever so softly.
The echo of that ringing persists.
Sometimes, it seems that it may emerge as a simple sadness, an aching, a yearning to bring more heart, warmth, softness and ease into our lives and into the lives of those around us. Sometimes it emerges as a clear, maybe even joyful "Duh! If we human beings were just able to be kind, everything would change!"
It then gets to be some serious fun!