Life has been quite full and rich and mostly quite positive for quite awhile now. Yet this past week, I noticed I was roller-coastering through some dark energies, feeling some deep angst and confusion. I also saw that I was, once again, increasingly addicted to spending way too many hours glued to a video monitor, computer screen, or the iPhone.
I'm
grateful to the Practice -- and being 72 years old. There's been lots of time for trial and error. Rather than
allow my conditioneed reaction to these energies propel me into utter burn-out as I
had a number of times over the years, I was able embrace them in mindfulness, explore them deeply, compare notes with a couple of my buddhies -- and then figure out what I
needed to do.
Although the external situation was quite different (that was the depth of winter and we are still in the midst of a serious summer here), I encountered a similar internal condition a few years ago. At that point I went off-line for a day and also decided to consider committing to a lifestyle that included, as
Vietnamese Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh suggests, spending one day a week as a Day of
Mindfulness. Here's that day's post. Stay tuned for more.
One Love,
Lance
Originally posted: February 1, 2015.
"Somehow we must find a way to allow each worker a day of mindfulness.
Such a day is crucial. Its effect on the other days of the week is
immeasurable."
--Thich Nhat Hanh, The Miracle of Mindfulness
"Blow up your TV. Throw away your paper."
-- John Prine, Spanish Pipedream
I awoke Wednesday knowing.
After
a week in Chicago with my son and his family (complete with daily
overdoses of internet, iPhone and television), then a long delayed
flight day back to the Pioneer Valley
on the tail of one snowstorm, then two full days of non-stop activity on Sunday
and Monday with
Winter Storm Juno glowering on the horizon, I found myself spending
hours and hours on Tuesday
plugged into the Weather Channel's livestream broadcast, immersed in
the
media excitement of the blizzard that pummeled the Northeast and dumped
36 inches of snow an hour east of here.
Of course,
well primed and pumped, I was multitasking all day as well. Texting and
instant messaging and emailing and FaceTiming and surfing the web in
search of this bit of information or that bit of Facebook news or
gossip, I was constantly "connected" to colleagues, family and friends, wired for
action.
I was Busy. Buzzing. Buzzed.
I bopped until I dropped, bone-tired, at about midnight.
On
Wednesday morning when I rolled over to look at the silent snowscape
outside the window and listened to the birds twittering within the
silence of a brand new day, I knew immediately. The decision emerged
from my bones, not my head.
I was done.
I
needed to pull the plug -- literally and figuratively. I had spent way
too many hours spread across way too many days immersed in my own
version of the hyper-cyber modern mainstream mode. It was time to turn
off all the devices, hang a "gone fishing" sign on the door of my life,
and spend the the day in silence.
Of course, I couldn't just disappear.
(I'd done that once before in my life in a dramatic and extremely
unskillful fashion. A long story best left for another time.)
So,
I quickly checked the calendar. Breathing a sigh of relief, I then
scribed a note of explanation to my housemates to prevent any
embarrassing confusion about my silence during possible encounters that
day. Being responsible, I quickly responded to two texts with a similar
explanation and turned off the iPhone. Being irresponsible, I decided
against taking the time to do a general email, a Facebook post, etc. ( I
mean really!?)
Instead, I brushed my teeth,
peed. Then I walked across the room to my little corner of the world,
bowed, lit a stick of incense -- and Sat Still Doing Nothing!
And I walked. And I sat.
And I walked. And I sat.
By
the time I crawled away to bed Wednesday night, I had spent about 5
hours on the zafu in formal meditation in my room and a half hour Sitting on the Greenfield Town Commons.
Eschewing reading (even dharma books), I had done about an
hour of Hatha Yoga, taken a walk, cleaned my room, watered and staked up
a jade plant that had gone horizontal in search of the sun, prepared
and eaten three meals and cleaned up afterwards and, of course, made a
number of trips to the bathroom. (My prostrate seems to be almost 69
years old, although I, of course, am much younger than that most the
time.)
For about 14 hours, I had not looked at a
screen or a printed page or listened to any sound through any form of
electronic device.
The only spoken words exchanged all day were a with
my Dharmabuddhy Paul to let him know that I was doing a day of silence
when he connected to pick me up for our ride to the #OMG! Peace Vigil at
noon in town -- and my brief response to a very juicy "Hi! How are
you?" from a bright-eyed young woman,
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